one of the thousands of things that bothering me

am i being too calculating,
or some people just want to test my tolerence level?

i am frustrated easily over small things.
i don't like confronting peole,
and sometimes i think, it might be just me taking the issue too hard.
so in most case, (actually, almost everytime) i will just swallow it...
and bear with it.
it's not good for health though...

how to voice out your feeling without hurthing people?
i really don't know.
do i think too much of how to express myself?
there is just so much to learn.
how to deal with people
and how not to hurting people.

problems are on me.
do i truly want to be a good person,
or i want people to think i am a good person.
i question myself.
i am confused.

the presumption of law is good.
prove the innocent guilty. (can't remember the exact term, but it's something like that...)
many times i take too hard to the result that i physically see.
but i did not think of why people did it, the intention behind the scene.
or i did not think of did i overlooked something.
many times i reacted too fast before i see the whole picture of the issue.
and sometimes i found i wasted my anger...
(in fact, i should not be angry at people)

i make things too complicated. i guess.
that might also be the reason why i have more grey hair at my age... = =+